Sorry it's been forever again!

Sorry I haven't posted in forever life has just been very busy trying to live in two states and run two houses is a lot of work! Not to mention chasing after a 1 year old : ) We have found a house in Michigan and will be closing on April 11th but not moving in until the 17th, so when we get settled I will put up pictures :) we are praying that our house in Fort Wayne will sell quickly (we have a showing today, so let's hope they make an offer) I really don't want to have to mow two places and keep them clean lol. Well I have to hurry so we can get out of here before the showing but I just wanted to post Kylee's 1 year pics and birthday party, and of course her walking video from Monday! Yep she is starting to walk, not sure if I'm ready for this I still want to keep her a baby! She will have much more fun this summer if she can walk though,so I guess it's ok. Hopefully I will get house pictures up soon, I will be glad to to done packing and moved! 

just had to add this one in to make you laugh she is watching Lilly go potty, and it was taken on her birthday : ) saving this for her wedding video 

mommy ran out of time getting ready for the party so I had wet hair and no makeup but who cares it was my little girl's 1st birthday and she had fun!

Daddy with his little birthday girl

Anyone want my cherry?

I know it has been awhile again but I have been dreading this post!

here are Kylee's 9 month pics to put something "happy" in this post

Well Mom's battle is over no more suffering she got to go be with the Lord on Dec. 22nd. We are lost without her and cry at least a few times each day, but she is not suffering and that is good, now we are. You don't realize how much stuff reminds you of your Mom until she is gone, everything I do and see makes me miss her and want to start crying! I miss talking to her everyday, calling her when I need cooking advise, mothering advise, or how to fix something, she really did know everything. Even driving makes me think of her because that is usually when I would call her to talk. Shopping will never be the same without her. My Mom loved everything about life so every bird I hear sing or flower I see makes me want to crawl in bed and cry. I guess all we can pray for is that the Lord returns soon so we can all be together again. Kylee loved her Maw Maw so much, in the morning after I fed her all last week she would look up at the ceiling and say bye bye maw maw and it just breaks my heart! Matt told Kylee the other day "I am so glad we have you to help us smile otherwise I don't think we would make it!" That is so true God works in mysterious ways we waited 4 years for a baby then she gets here and he takes Mom and it makes you think.. Why? But without her we would be lost she puts smiles on our face even when you are sad and she is her Grandma's mini me, a precious reminder everyday of Mom! Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers for our family and please continue to do so while we are dealing with our great loss, THANK YOU!!

Here is where you can go to watch Mom's picture slideshow, I hope it works if not let me know and I will try again, I tried to put it on my post but it wouldn't let me. I'm still learning all this new technology  ;) 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-5dxS5sH2U

Sorry again I know it has been awhile since a post

Michigan sunset from a few weeks ago 

poor sick Kylee. so sad no smiles since Thursday

Kylee with a cold washcloth to cool her fever down

I know I haven't posted in awhile life has just been really crazy lately and not much good has happened and didn't feel like writing about the bad. I was hoping if I waited that good news would come before I had to post, but it is not looking that way. Mom is not doing good at all the dr told us her lungs are not working properly and that is why she is having swelling and breathing problems. Since last Thursday mom has been  having a really rough time, but she is a fighter I can say that she is not giving up yet!! She is back on oxygen because her levels were too low and she had really labored breathing, still trying to eat but not able to get down as much as she had been. We are not giving up about 100 times a day me and Kylee pray for a miracle to make her Grandma better, she loves her Grandma so much every time they see each other they both have smiles on their faces, and they look so much alike all the nurses keep commenting on how much she looks like her Grandma! We can not live without her she is such a special person there is no one is this world quite like Mom, she is a one of a kind!! Even when she is so sick she can barely stand it she still is thinking about everyone else but herself, she is the most loving person I know and we want more than anything to have her back to her healthy self and no more pain and suffering, she has had too much!!! So that's about all I have for tonight just keep praying is all we can do!! Kylee has been sick since Thanksgiving day her first time being sick ever, poor girl looks so pitiful, I think she is finally getting better she didn't throw up today at least, and she finally got to eat poor thing hasn't ate in 3 days!! That's all the news we have for now hopefully next time will be a happy post, we need one!!  Thanks for everyone's prayers, keep it up!!

A nice walk on the beach by our rental in Michigan

Last week we got a little time out of our busy schedule and made it down to the beach by our rental house in Michigan to check out the lake. Kylee and Lilly both love the water. Kylee loves to watch the waves, and she wishes she could walk right into the water! Here are a few pictures we took. We had to take one for Grandma since she is still sick and can't come see the beach : (   Please keep praying for mom to be able to eat everyday so she can gain weight and strength to get better! Have a great day!

Love u Grandma!!

sisterly love!

It's been awhile

Sorry I haven't posted anything in awhile life has just been crazy lately and I can't even find time to get everything done that I should. For those of you who don't know we are in the process of relocating to Michigan, Matt got a new job there and started Sept 20. He has been going and coming home on the weekends so I could stay and spend time with mom, but last week Kylee and I went for some of the week and are going some of this week also. I think we are going to try to do this every week until the house sells,  which is work I need to get done getting it ready to sell! I think I need 3 or maybe 4 of me! Anyway we had to move mom from the hospital, they said there was nothing else they could do for her and that the cancer had spread since the last procedure ( in 10 days it changed a lot the dr. said) The options we had were nursing home, hospice, or take her home, mom chose hospice so thats where we took her. Mom has been at hospice for 2 weeks now I think ( I could be wrong life has been crazy) Please pray that the cancer would go into remission or better yet disappear completely( hey with our God it is possible!) Mom has not really ate or drink much of anything in about a month which is obviously not good, so that is another prayer request. The nausea is so bad that it is not allowing her to eat, they have tried different medications but they just aren't working. Anyway I need to go pack for Michigan and get some sleep, thank you everyone for your prayers, calls, cards,meals, and just thoughts for our family we really appreciate it! It really makes you realize who your real friends are in the rough times, keep praying we all need it! Life is just not always easy or how you think it should be but God knows best so whatever reason he is allowing this to happen it is in his hands and that's the best place to be! I will try not to wait so long for the next update, night!

Kylee's 6 month pictures

I finally got around to posting Kylee's 6 month pictures. She was very serious this day and was refusing to smile, but I guess it shows her true personality she is a pretty serious little girl sometimes! Also a little note about mom she is having hopefully her last procedure tomorrow, just pray that everything goes well! The last two have had complications so we are hoping for this one to go smoothly with no problems, pray for mom to relax she is a little nervous after the last two and all the trauma they have put her through! Thanks for all the prayers!

     

Please Pray for mom

Well things have been rough for mom the past week.. well basically since surgery on July 27th. She is back in the hospital for the 2nd time since surgery, Dad took her in Saturday for vomiting and discomfort, not being able to keep food down. Lots has happened since then I can't explain everything it would take days and you probably would just be very confused like us ( we hear different things from different nurses and doctors all the time) Today mom had two procedures done to help take care of the vomiting hopefully so she can get to feeling better, get food down for nutrition she needs, and get her healing and healthy so we can get her the chemo treatments she needs to help stop this horrible cancer! Better yet I would love for everyone's prayers for God to make it just disappear so she doesn't have to go through anymore treatments or procedures! But, we all know it is in his hands and his decision, he knows best! Anyway just continue to pray, pray, pray! What we can hope for the most right now is that these 2 procedures and the trauma she had to go through today were worth it and help take away her discomfort! She will have at least 2 more procedures within the next 2 weeks to finish the process they started today, anyway there is so much involved it is complicated to explain in writing but I hope this is enough information to let you know she just needs prayer! Thanks!!